Who am I anyway?

"Who am I?" is the question everyone asks who has been touched by the loss of a child. We don't even know who we are anymore because we're so changed. We say and do things we never thought possible. We get angry and have mood swings. We think thoughts that would scare others if they heard our thoughts. We wear a mask to hide behind because the new "me" is frightening. We're a shell of the person we used to be -- we've changed, but the changes are often scary. We're don't trust life anymore. How can we? The unimagineable happened. Our child died. And, when that happened we stopped being ourselves. That old "me" is gone and now we are a new person -- different in so many ways. And, it's so scary. It feels like we're teetering on the brink of insanity. Yes, that's just how scary the grief from child loss is!